My Mission

From Quiet Desperation to Inner Power

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For many years, I was a man living in quiet desperation.

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I learned early on that vulnerability wasn’t safe, so I built a life around perfection and performance. On the outside, I looked successful—fit, disciplined, driven. But inside, I was battling chaos. I didn’t know who I was beyond the roles I played.

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Henry David Thoreau said, “Most men lead lives of quiet desperation and go to the grave with the song still in them.”

That was me. I tried to fill the void with sports, bodybuilding, women, alcohol—even religion. Nothing worked.

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When the Dream Died, So Did My Identity

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A serious knee injury ended my dream of playing professional football in college. In a moment, my identity as an athlete was gone—and I didn’t know who I was without it.

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I spent 18 years in a marriage that ultimately ended in divorce. I coped with emotional pain by drinking through my twenties and thirties, blacking out regularly and eventually ending up with alcohol poisoning. That was my wake-up call.

 

My career? Six-figure income, corporate stability... and soul-crushing emptiness. I was alive, but I wasn’t living. I was performing, but I wasn’t connected.

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As an INFJ and a highly sensitive person (HSP), I longed for depth, truth, and connection—but for most of my life, I didn’t even understand what that meant.

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Suffering in Silence

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I carried it all in silence.

The shame. The anger. The sense that I had to figure it out alone.

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I fell to my knees one night and prayed to a God I didn’t really know. The God I had grown up with—preached by my father, a Lutheran pastor—felt distant and judgmental. I rebelled. I went to church. I left again. Nothing touched the ache I felt inside.

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The Turning Point: Exploring My Own Truth

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Eventually, I stopped trying to fit into religious molds and began seeking my own path. I studied Taoism, Buddhism, Hinduism, non-duality, and the Christian mystics—teachers like Joel Goldsmith, Thomas Merton, and Rupert Spira.

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Slowly, the veil began to lift.

I returned not to the dogma of religion, but to the direct experience of Spirit. I came home to my Self.

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The Kingdom Within

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The realization that changed everything:

What I was seeking was already within me.
The Kingdom of Heaven is within.

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I no longer needed to perform or prove myself. I simply needed to listen—to the still, small Voice that had been guiding me all along. That inner Voice became my guide, my healer, and my compass.

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Living with Purpose

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Today, I wake up with purpose and a deep sense of inner peace.

I’m not here to fix anyone. I’m here to walk with men who feel lost, disillusioned, or quietly desperate—because I’ve been there.

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I’ve walked through the fire, and I’ve come out with something to share.

Not from a pedestal, but from a place of Presence, compassion, and real-life experience.

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The Path of Service

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I’m not a theologian. I’m a man who has suffered, questioned everything, and come back to Life.

Now, I serve as a soul guide for truth-seeking men and passionate golfers who want to come home to themselves.

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Through Inner Power Coaching and Presence Golf Coaching, I help men and golfers master their energy, heal their emotional wounds, and reconnect with their true identity—beyond performance, beyond ego, beyond expectation.

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If I can help even one man reclaim his inner power, it will have been worth everything.

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You are not alone. You are not broken. The power you’re seeking has always been within.

 

When we stop looking outside ourselves and return to the truth inside, we become the light we’ve been searching for.

 

To your inner power,

Founder of Inner Power Collective